Saturday, 6 December 2014

Giveaway: Benefit Bozed Powder, MAC Lipstick & Eyeshadows

Tis the season for giving and I'm running three giveaway's, currently! You can't enter here, but there are three different prizes and three different ways to enter! Over on my Facebook page, I'm giving away one Benefit boxed powder (in a shade of the winner's choice). All you have to do is 'like' my facebook page and share this photo to your page or wall! 

On my Instagram, I have one MAC lipstick, in a shade of the winner's choice up for grabs. All you have to do is be a follower of @heyAmyJane on Instagram and repost this photo to your own Instagram account and make sure you tag me or mention me in the comments of it, so I can count your entry!

And finally, for my Twitter followers, I am giving away a MAC eyeshadow duo. That's one MAC eyeshadow duo pan and two MAC eyeshadows in shades of the winner's choice. To enter this giveaway, be a follower of mine on Twitter and retweet this tweet.

Good luck!

Amy x
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Thursday, 4 December 2014

Personal: I'm a Blogger, but I'm not a size 8

I've never been the girl who cycles, endlessly through her entire wardrobe, before stepping back, weepy and exhausted to see the destruction that has inevitably become. Clothes all over the floor, shirts crumpled, tights pulled on and off, left inside out, discarded and rejected. But the past few weeks that girl has been me.

Today I stayed in, comfortable in my pyjamas and missed a night out and a Christmas meal with some very good friends of mine, purely because I felt embarrassed and self concious in everything I put on. I felt sick at the thought of leaving the house, having people look at me, wondering, if they are judging me for my size, for trying to squeeze my thighs into a pencil skirt. I missed out.

I haven't been very active on my blog of late, purely for the reason the thought of taking photos of myself sickens me to my stomach. I've never been a size 6 model, but I've never looked in the mirror and hated the skin I'm in, up until now.

I feel like my own flesh is a prison, I'm stuck in this body that doesn't look good in a mini skirt, that can't rock a bodycon dress, that arches it's back to try to hide from the world rather than walking tall. It's miserable. For someone who loves clothes and fashion, I can count on one hand the amount of clothing items I wear on a daily basis, these days. My lived in smock dress that 'skims over the chub,' my boyfriend jeans that are so baggy, you can't see the size of my thighs and oversized jumpers that do nothing for me. 

The more I loath my body and the way I look, the more I withdraw from the blogging world. Every bloglovin' post seems to jeer at me 'look at this seasons must have item that you won't be able to pull off' and 'look at how confident I am in myself.' I like to torture myself with it, none the less. To look at the models, the skinny bloggers, the naturally petite girls until the tears are running down my face and I inevitably turn to food for comfort and oblivion. 

This post isn't an excuse, nor is it a promise to myself to try harder, to love who I am. Rather, it's is brain vomit, because expressing myself through this space on the internet is what I am best at. I wish I could love myself, unconditionally and unapologetically but for now I can't. So, Amy, I am sorry for that. 

Amy x
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Tuesday, 18 November 2014

Outfit: Pink Leather & Primark Bargains

Just because the weather is getting darker, and greyer, doesn't mean we have to follow suit with our wardrobes too. I love injecting colour into my Winter outfits, even if it's just the addition of a coloured jacket or boots. This leather jacket is a Primark bargain at just £25, and I love the way the bright pink looks, contrasted with the navy blue ankle boots.

I love the way the shorts tie the jacket and the boots together, nicely. I think these shorts are a Wintery floral pattern, if that can be a thing... Is it a thing? It definitely should be!
Crop Top: H&M
Jacket: Primark
Tights: Primark
Necklace: *Next
Shorts: Primark
Boots: *OASAP
I wore this outfit to a family meal, for my Grandfather's birthday. I won't publish how old he is on the internet, all you need to know is that he is still a finely tuned athlete. Unfortunately, this outfit was the first time I cracked out my Primark 'Super Cosy' tights for the Winter. They are so warm and soft, but I am mourning the loss of Summer warmth. Cry.

Amy x